This is me.

Things had changed. Totally hurt. Can't forgive myself. Been so damn stupid. Crycrycry. Poor me. Cry just for the only one. Could it be worth for someone that are useless such as me?So it's true that you're the only one i'm needing. I finally know what am i truly are. A human that are not meant to be called human! To all people, sorry for what i've did. It's my biggest damn mistake to hurt you all. Sorry everyone. T.T

I don't wanna lose it.

No tittle? =T

Thinking thinking of a topic.

I think about 1 week ago i can't online because i have problem with my router. Lol. But, so here am i again. Hmmm, been addicted to this drama lately. The tittle is Angels of mission. It's about the 3 main character and three of them are girls. They are an inspector for every mission in that story. Spending a lot of time watching that drama. I can't get my butt away from my bed watching it. Really addictive. Well somehow i wished i could be as cool as them. The girl even said once she became a police she should be able to learn solving problems by her self. There's no need for people to see our tears. Maybe it can be an advise for me. Although the story is interesting but the ending still can't make me satisfied to it. Drama is like that. People will say "siok ow that drama but the ending sux" that's usually people will say. And today, i watched a Japanese drama entitled 1 Litre of tears. After hearing its tittle from my brother i said to myself. I know this story must be interesting but can make people cry. Well, this story is actually dedicated for people that have the same disease as the girl in that drama. A disease that cannot be cured. Sitting on the sofa in the living room. I've been spending half of the day watching it. I didn't even realize the time because i keep on continuing the episode. After all, i ended up watching the whole episodes at 6pm. Done it. The drama is done. Ouch, my butt hurts. Lol!! But, the ending is still the same. Not as good as what i'm thinking though. Anyway, there's a lot of moral stories in it. The story really have made me cried for once. Hahahaha. Maybe u guys should watch it too! =)

Missing and hating people are what i feel now. I am human. I can't stop these feeling away from my heart. But, there is a cure for it. Missing someone? Wanna know who? just giving a tips. Maybe it can be called SHE. While hating it! actually hating HIM. But the feeling hating HIM are many than missing HER. Just have this feeling like wanna slap his stupidity ugly face! =.=

People that are in form 3 now or in more detail, people those who going to sit for their PMR next week GOOD LUCK, AND TRY YOU'RE VERY OWN BEST. Thinking about that can make me worried. 2 years left for me to enjoy my life. Once i'm 15 i must follow these rules that i have listed down here.

• less LEPAKS
• don't skip school and tuition
• less talking
• less watching tv
• less SMS
• often do homeworks
• study more
• less using the PC
• don't drink NESCAFE
• pay attention in class

I should follow these rules and regulation. I should have disciplined myself to it.

Gosh, i haven't take my bath yet. Guys, will write a new post sooner! tata.

Backkk!! :]

Guyss, blog had not been updated for a very long time. Sorry for the inconvenience. Been so damn lazy bone now. Hehe. Well, have a lots of fun during this year of RAYA! I think this year is the best Hari Raya Celebration ever! Eat eat eat eat during raya. Gosh! :S getting fatter i guess. Hehee. Nahh actually i've no idea what to write. Anyway going to kk today^^ huhu. So guys will update my bloggie for the next time. Enjoy!! ^^

A heart that are full with love for you. ^^

You will be always in my heart. I don't wanna mention who is the person and even the gender. It's a secret between me and my heart. How to describe this person. She/he likes to make jokes. Quite tall. Most importantly, taller than me. Well, I know that I'm short. =.=" Firstly, he/she did a lot to me. I appreciated what he/she had done to me. I wanna thank him/her for being good to me whenever I need her/him. I learned a lot from her/him. When I'm not in a mood, he/she will be there for me and even supports me. I'm lucky to have a such wonderful person. I knew that sometimes, I've annoyed her/him. Well, it is just a small mistake and I'm sorry for doing that.

I get to know that you are one of my important person which is in a special place in my heart. You should deserved it. I love you so much. It's like without you by my side would make me lose control. This is quite ashamed to tell but that is the truth. I can't stop from thinking about you everywhere, anytime and even everyday. Mostly, i spent my life to be with you. I dunno if you know that I really love you and keep on missing you. Just hoping you will know someday.. I really mean it. Hmm. I've been thinking will you ever feel as what I feel now? Or maybe I am the only one who had been thinking too much and too far.

I used to share my problems with her/him. But at times, I may not for his/her own good. She/he had just scolded me for doing that to him/her. But, I can't stop myself from doing the same. Most days, you will be there to make me happy. Although, I'm too tired but I still can accept it because your funny attitude changed my mind. I've been finding a person such as you for a very long time. At last, I found you! You are most suitable with me. I don't wanna lose you. As long as you be with me, the more harder for me to let you go far away. I'll lock you in my heart and keep the key in a good condition. So that I can bring you whenever I want to. Hope you will read this. I took this opportunity to show to you that I really appreciated you for being by my side..

I don't wanna get hurt. I don't wanna hurt you too in the same place. I hope you understand me. Our memories that are so hard to be forgotten will always be in my mind. I'll hope you are happy being with me. I hope you will accept my apology. Well, I'm running out of ideas. Getting stuck. Hmm. Just to stop by saying I LOVE YOU!! Heading to bed now. Till then.

Frustrated, sad, unhappy.

Well.. I get to know these feelings in this past two days. It's a damn weird feeling. I'm being too sensitive lately. It's like all that I ever wanted had disappeared away. The feeling that I used to be happy last time had just fade away. Normally, it is just a small sorts of reason which will not gonna be forever. Hmph.. I am wondering is this feeling because of someone, or what.. But maybe, it could be about someone. I guess. Actually, I don't have any aim or purpose by writing this topic. But, I still want to write and tell it out. How does my feeling hurts me badly. Last time, I used to smile and laugh uncontrollably. I don't have to worry about anything. No worries at all. But at times, I used to cry and become angry because of a certain reasons.

These past two days, I sit on the chair in the room of mine thinking of all my memories that I've been through with a lots of people by my side. I missed the time where I don't have any problem to think just a happiness feeling conquering my heart. I would love to see my friends having fun, be happy and feel the joy-ness which they should have feel it.

Usually, my friends will be there when I invited or ask them to accompany me for a walk or shopping or something. Well, I highlighted my words here. But NOW! I do get rejected by THEM! I really can't believe this. They will say I DON'T WANT! I'M LAZY. They even asked me to invite other friend to accompany me. Isn't that hurtful? Friends that I used to adore now becoming into a normal and unclosed friends. Ow man it's awful! I just couldn't believe my own eyes they said like that to me. Although the way they say it's ain't in a rough way but I still can feel that they really don't want to.

My heart and my feeling could burn me off. Today, I opened my hand phone and asked her if she minds to go to the shop with me. But sadly, she had just rejected me. (NOT AGAIN!!) Without wasting my time, I replied never mind to her. Unfortunately, my tears had just rolled onto my cheeks. I've cried soundly. I know that I've been exaggerating too much. No jokes. Well, I can't continue on my feelings right now because it will never end. I write this is not to talk bad about her. The only thing I wanna say is.. It hurts me so damn badly. I am done here. Will try to update my blog for the next time as soon as possible. Till then.

Will this be everlasting?

This is how our friendship began. At first, we are known as a normal friends. After that, I can feel that our relationship became more closer. Although I know that we ever became an enemy but maybe its because of faith. We straight away became a good friends. Not just only good friends, but best friends. Anyway, we've been best friends since primary school and till now.


After being best friends for 6 years, we should know more on our own attitudes. I know your attitudes and even your background. You are in the same place too. Well, we are still being like last time in the beginning of the year. But when comes to the middle of the year, I can feel that both of us are changing. Not just a little but, a lot. I don't really wanna tell what is the main reason why we've been acting like this lately. I felt really really different. Our friendship is not as last time anymore. It's like I dunno you anymore. Even though we always hang out together but there is something that blocks us to get through it. As in there's a big damn rock are blocking the two of us. I'll try to change my attitude but it is always for the time being ONLY! I mean, if I change my attitude but it will not gonna be everlasting because my damn old attitude will be back on the next day. I know that it is not good to be like that. But, I can't stop from doing it.

I wanna become like last time. I mean the time that I still your best friend that knows everything about you. I scared one day you'll left me and I'll left you too. Then our long friendship has just stop like that. I don't want our relationship just stop like that without reasons that are meaningless.

But, till now.. I can feel that I still love you more than anyone else. If, I have an extremely damn problem she will be there for me. Although she may scold me for doing this and that but she will always supports me. Actually, I love to share problems with her because she have a good opinions though. Even 1 word from her mouth can change my mind for doing it/not doing it. Well, I always have this feeling that if i did something wrong, I wanna tell her but I am so damn scared to tell her because she is just like an angel to me. If I become a bad person, I scared to tell my angel because she is too GOOD for me and I scared to lie to her. Its not that I scared but I can't lie to her and I can't stop my mouth from telling the truth to her. Maybe it's because I love her that much. Even if I shouldn't tell her about anything, but I will still gonna tell her instead of anyone else.

Actually, I don't really wanna mention about the problems that are striking to us now. Just that we should be more cooperative and we both should tolerate to each other. We have to face it together even though what will happen to us. I wanna be with you forever. >.<
I WANT OUR RELATIONSHIP TO BE EVERLASTING!!!